What a face and what a gaze. What exquisite kindness and what charm.
We went to the exhibition at the Palais de l'Industrie as a group, the Gavinis, Randouin, Berthe, Gery, etc. and afterwards to the Bois.
Last night I prayed to God for a long time but I did not feel that He heard me. There are things that are impossible and when one asks for them it is...
I spent two hours at the Gavinis', just the three of us. These people represent perfectly the banal, reasonable and down-to-earth society. I go there...
Since yesterday at one o'clock in the night we have been in Dieppe.
We saw M. de Plancy.
The weather is fine and I am beginning to accustom myself to the northern seas. I went to paint a beach in the morning and in the afternoon while...
We laugh a great deal and I am having a good time but laughter is in my nature and is independent of my mood.
Last evening there were yearnings, prayers... such that I almost expected to read this morning in the papers of the death of Cassagnac's wife... Why...
I made a *pochade* of Bojidar. ==*Nulla dies sine linea.*==
Having left Worth and Laferriere I have had my clothes made at Doucet and Savarre and consequently I have become bourgeoisified. There are only the...
I dreamed of Cassagnac's wife with red hair, and fat. I went to paint in the countryside, I slept little, I am very tired and ugly. I no longer...
I was wakened in the night to be given the following telegram: I have seen Joseph: signed Berthe.
The races, but I would not even take up the pen, all this passed flatly for me, had I not to say that I saw up close the Princess de Sagan, nee...
Blanc arrived in the afternoon and this evening I await Berthe.
Berthe breaks the monotony of the family... and what a tiresome family!
This morning at the beach with de Plancy, Da Costa, the princes etc. the afternoon the same. In the evening theater with Judic and dancing. We ran...
Races, beaches, at the pier with Berthe and Alexis.
Beach. Berthe's departure, amusing scene at the station.
Gaedes, Fenelon, Morales, caricatures. Hecht.
I do not quite know what to say and yet some rather significant little things have happened. Tuesday the races and then we went to the beach, Blanc...
I am ashamed to call myself a Republican.
Yesterday we went to Pourville and when one goes to Pourville one has lunch there and then one goes to lie on the pebbles and throw them at each...
Hecht had absented himself yesterday from five to ten o'clock to dine at Puys with the Carvalhos and to see Dumas and his other friends, at ten...
I was interrupted yesterday by Maman, Dina, Da Costa and Moraes who stayed talking very late.
The arrival of the deportees displaying red caps and sashes is an ugly thing. One should never have brought these people back. They had grown...
After two pleasantly spent days we left Dieppe.
A promenade in the Bois paler than yesterday's. Amiability from Hecht and a visit from Da Costa. Blanc comes in the evening and savages the republic....
At the Bois nothing but Hecht and in the evening this same Hecht and Da Costa and Berthe. I had the imprudence to laugh at the name of Joseph before...
This evening Hecht offered us a stage box at the Opera. The premiere of "la Muette" and a very elegant house for September. I am of an *astonishing*...
My aunt and Maman have been in bed for an hour, I would like to stay up all night smoking and talking nonsense for you know that I have a devil of a...
Blanc flatters me so. According to him there are not many like me, he unearths the historical notes I take with the help of the ancients, the remarks...
Dinner at Hecht's! M. and Mme Dubail who so to speak did the honors, she was born Martinez, a sort of Creole from Mme de Lesseps' circle. Hecht...
Here are journals and I have just read the two hundred pages of which the first issue of Mme Adam's review, Juliette Lamber, is composed. All this...
Multedo came yesterday evening, as always combative, childish and tiresome. Very tiresome. Moreover my dear family believed it their duty to explain,...
Gavini who has just arrived came at the same time as the Tchoumakoffs and Bichinsky and Goldsmid. This prevented me from going to Saint-Marceaux's...
I went to church with Maman, I am going to go there at least every other Sunday because the Russians say that I do not believe in God. That is what...
Yesterday Gavini, Chaudordy and Goldsmid dined with us, the princes arrived in the evening. We spoke much of Gambetta. The former ambassador...
I am painting a life-sized torso.
I abandoned my head study in the middle of the week, consequently as Tony was passing from the large studio to the small one I hid myself behind the...
Bojidar who is going to go to the Atelier Julian has come to work at my place, I will give him four or five lessons before sending him there. He...
Bogreyeff and Miloradovitch came today but as I was taking my harp lesson I only went to the salon for three-quarters of their visit. Maman gets...
I returned to Laferriere's who feted me and received me with open arms and I ordered dresses.
The weather is fine and cold, I put on my otter fur coat and bought a beautiful bouquet of violets and I do not know how this made all the time since...
My head is better than the last ones I have painted. This lets me breathe a little bit.
My aunt has made a will in my favor. The prediction of the fortune-teller the other day, then impossible dreams made me think of what would happen if...
Yesterday we had to dinner Berthe and her husband, M. de Morgan, Bojidar and Miloradovitch. The latter recounted to Maman the unkindnesses done to...
Already yesterday I went to Collin's for a sculpture installation but one must rent a studio; at home there is no room...
They come to bother me because my window is open and I might catch a chest cold! That is just like them. You know the life they make me lead, you...
We return from the concert organized at the Trocadero by Coquelin for the benefit of the Artists' Association. La Patti sang. It is an event other...
There is in the newspapers an explosion of enthusiasm for la Patti. They are quite right.
My painting is "much, much better." We did the other day a one-hour sketch for the rankings and this morning one displays them in the small salon and...
I went to visit a studio for rent opposite our house and then I worked. Multedo came and I said rude things to him then Maman, my aunt, Dina and I go...
quiet indifference, very graceful in a woman.
Madame Gavini has arrived and rushed to our house saying that we see well that she treats us like her closest relatives.
We go by tram to the Cluny Museum. The Karageorgevitches, MM. de Tarente, Turquan, Johnstone and Berthe. And ourselves. It is not wildly gay but...
We are back from the Opera, I am in good spirits, we enjoyed ourselves, we were very fashionable. Mme Gavini, Berthe, Dina, myself, Johnstone,...
We made a tremendous impression, I say we because Berthe only arrived afterwards. Mme Gavini was beside herself with joy at seeing that people were...
A visit to the Gavinis and a promenade in the Bois. Saw Joseph and he saw me. It is silly but now I must write it when I see him and where and how.
We go to see "Les Mirabeau," a new play, in two boxes with M. and Mme Gavini, Chaudordy, de Morgan, Gery and then Gabriel.
I dream that Julian brings me the medal, I arrive at the atelier and learn that it is Amelie who has it. This has offended no one since it has been...
What shall I tell you? Must I still complain of the cowards who surround me? I can do nothing! My mother had for a moment the idea of going to Russia...
I have finished the portrait of the concierge. She is very like. There is immense joy in the porter's lodge, daughter, son-in-law, little girls,...
The Mouzays, the Berthes, and the Karageorgevitches to dinner.
I went to church yesterday, I go there from time to time so that people do not say I am a nihilist.
If for several days I often say nothing it is because I do not find it interesting to tell you about Laferriere, about hats or other stories of that...
My painting is going much better. At three o'clock I go to Tony's and while looking for his address at M. Boulanger's (the painter) it happens that I...
I had written to M. d'Aspremont for that good Tchoumakoff and here is his reply, [missing] I want to send something to Nice under a nom de guerre of...
Today Cassagnac turned thirty-six. But he is not handsome at the Chamber, I went there with the Princess and Alexis (my model being ill). We did not...
I forgot to keep the newspaper with Gambetta's mot; M. de Baudry d'Asson, son of giants, the Vendean, the great hunter before the Lord, mounts the...
Yes, I have my... unpleasant days. We went skating, Berthe, Paul, Alexis and I, at the club; there we find Lafond and Cherubini. Blanc has persuaded...