To church. I go out alone into town -- I correct myself, in the company of Prater, who very gravely occupied the seat of honour beside me. A...
We all go to Monte Carlo, all except Stiopa and Machenka (the Ferry boots arrived this morning -- good).
I go out with Machenka (brown dress, brown hat -- good).
This morning a letter is opened and... it comes from *Dominica Pavlovna*; she announces the death of her son. We knew from the newspapers that he...
Maman enters the drawing room all in tears; Dina knows. I do not go to see her until the evening; it is stupid to intrude when one is grieving. There...
Has everyone left? Is the season finished? Must I be bored? Does the Strait no longer exist? I go to the Promenade, but in vain; I see no one, barely...
I had a very disagreeable scene with Manotte this morning. It was a question of playing a six-hand overture at a matinee at his house. I consented to...
We arrive at church a little late (brown dress, black hat -- I bought it from Dina -- good). Near the entrance I pass Woerman who says "better late...
I wait in vain for Allard -- one hour, one and a half, at last two hours and he is not here. In despair I go to weep in the yellow salon, and in the...
I dreamt of a grey dress that seemed to me charming; I go into town with Machenka (brown dress, black hat, new hairstyle, hair on the nape -- good)....
Eight o'clock; I have just read yesterday's entry. It does not give even the slightest idea of what I felt yesterday; it is a caricature. Oh, what...
Last night I put a mirror under my pillow, to know what our villa will bring. Here is my dream:
What a day of madness! From ten o'clock I am getting dressed (brown dress, black hat, new hairstyle -- *good*).
All this week I have missed several lessons, always because of this Ravel which is being repaired.
Maman etc. are at Monaco.
I had a strange dream: I hear that the Duke of Hamilton has arrived, but since I already knew it *in reality* I was not mortally surprised; I was...
It is late; I shall give an account of today tomorrow. But I cannot help saying how filled I am with him, how I see him, how I love him. We were at...
I am in a dreadful state, but let us begin with yesterday. Allard does my hair and I put on the white dress, which is really very pretty. We leave;...
Yesterday I lunched at the London House with my aunt; on our way out the baron passed us in his carriage and raised his hat quite high. If he had...
Yesterday I saw Dady and Brady; they recognized me.
I go out with Maman and my aunt, who are paying calls; I stay in the carriage and only get out at the Filimonoffs'. I went through all the rooms and...
At church (blue dress -- good) I cannot endure my brown hat; it has been a long time since I last wore it, and the black one is beginning to bore me...
The Wittgenstein woman drives about ill, in a coupe. And her quasi-husband no longer shows himself. Is he too going to marry? Why not -- it is in the...
I go out on foot with Papa (blue dress -- good); it is beginning to grow hot, and I become unhappy. There is nothing more disagreeable for me than...
Nice no longer exists -- it is summer! It is summer. I cannot believe it. No one left on the Promenade!
The season of winds has begun. It is sad.
Why did I make so many explanations about my inclination for the Duke of Hamilton -- why did I say it is or is not because he is a duke, etc.? Was it...
I have just abandoned myself to a wild dance in my chemise before the pier glass, and then, and then... the cord of the chemise broke and it fell,...
I wake early, for at seven o'clock the horses are already waiting for us, but it is only at eight that we set out. The new bodice of my riding habit...
I come every morning to Maman and my aunt to prepare our departure from Nice.
I know that I am good at heart. Paul made me terribly angry today. I wanted to ride, and the horses had been ordered since yesterday. Today is a...
I believe decidedly that Paul is either mad or drunk. I was taking my tea in the morning and he, because I pushed away his cup, threw it so near my...
Every evening my right ear burns; every evening, regularly.
I have just played and won fifteen francs -- a small revenge for all of Paul's meannesses.