Diary of Marie Bashkirtseff

Notebook 020

May 1874 — July 1874

36 entries 36 translated

Main location: Paris

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An exhausting day. Having lunched in haste at Benard's, we take the train to Sevres.

For this Sunday I did not write my diary; I was cross, bored. We were to go to Chantilly; we arrived at the station -- there was no more train. I was...

I am wearing a simple and pretty unbleached linen dress, from Caroline. It is very hot -- unbearably hot, were it not in Paris.

I sum up these two days in few words. Yesterday we had a disagreeable incident at the hotel.

The result is that after having the owner summoned, Maman made a scene, and today we have moved to the *Hotel des Iles Britanniques,* rue de la Paix.

The first night spent at the Hotel des Iles Britanniques was not bad. I had a dream all streaked with Wittgenstein; incidentally, since I spoke of...

For the first time in several days, I go out at two o'clock alone with Maman. We were at Caroline's, at Cavally's, and finally at Worth the guilty...

I learn a fine story: Paul had taken his watch case to sell it; the man came to ask whether he should hand over the money; Maman forbade him. I was...

It rains (gray dress). I had enormous trouble doing my hair. Maman and Dina went ahead to church; I came after with Paul, but too late -- I do not go...

At Caroline's -- I prefer to say Caroline rather than Laferriere. Maman took a box for one hundred and twenty francs for the *Requiem Mass* in memory...

The deacon is already here; he has **imposed himself** to come hear the mass. This wretched priest is drunk on himself; he assumes airs of a spoiled...

*Fedus,* the dog, has escaped.

I was dreaming that Machenka wanted to marry an officer; he was in blue, lying on the ground. I advised against it, and all at once this officer...

I find "L'amour" by Michelet bland, boring, and dirty. This love would disgust one of love.

Everyone had gone out except Paul and me. Maman had said she would go with Walitsky to hear the *mass* once more. I worked an hour at my piano, then...

GRAND PRIX DE PARIS; 1874, June 14.

While waiting for someone to come fetch me, I look out the window and see a great quantity of people of all sorts passing by, and among others the...

It rains; it is cold. Alfred fits me for the riding habit. The deacon is of an incredible impudence. He installs himself and plays roulette all day....

With what difficulties we are buying this villa 55! But thanks to God the money is on the way, and with His permission all will go well.

We go out late. While Maman was in consultation with one of those charlatans they call doctors, we -- I, Dina, Paul, and the deacon -- remained at...

We have no more money -- it is devastating! Never have I needed and wanted so many things. It is the cruelest and most wretched position in the...

M. de Villemessant, of the *Figaro,* has rendered judgment. Maman went to see him to ask him to put my Dusautoy in his newspaper, telling him the...

I slept in church, but the dog market was waiting for me. I took Walitsky and we set off. Nothing good, and the young ==bull== puppy that I came back...

This will be a little difficult: since Monday the 22nd I have written nothing, and many things have happened -- the most important being that we are...

Maman is very overwrought; she wept with sobs, not knowing where we would go. When they proposed Vichy she responded with a furious refusal, and now...

What a strange town: around the spring, no one; in the gardens, no one; in the baths, a few Russian hippopotamuses screaming at the top of their...

It rains. They go out before me, giving me a rendezvous at the baths. In full rain costume I go there; I remain in the salon looking at engravings,...

We go in two carriages, one driven by me, the other by Dina-Paul, to see the four fountains. Fountains without water! I expected cascades like at...

"The Duke and Duchess of Hamilton have arrived in England from the Orient" (Derby) -- just as if one said that M. Lefevre's filly arrived at Epsom...

[Crossed out: At the prom. in the morning.] We made the round of all the shops with the Spa painted wares. I bought quantities of things to give as...

Yesterday we talked a great deal with Mme Basilevitch; I do not find her enormously witty. I gave her news of Nice and the Nicois.

M. Body, a thin man, bespectacled, making much wit while having less. *The Englishman* -- fairly tall, fairly stout, fairly handsome, fairly stupid,...

There is a children's ball before the kiosk on the promenade.

It is hot; I have nothing to put on. I stay home and admire my arms and my golden curls. A most amusing occupation, and almost my favorite.

I was with Basilevitch at the marquise's; they were working at her house installing the gas. When we came to the promenade, everything was over. The...