Notebook 062

May 1876 — July 1876

35 entries 39,490 words 35 translated

Main location: Nice

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If you think Audiffret amuses me, you are mistaken.

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It is not yet noon and I have already had a meeting with the marble-worker who came to inspect my bathroom and is already at work on a shell of the...

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No doubt he is not in Rome, for such an oversight, such a want of courtesy even towards an indifferent woman, is impossible. It would simply be...

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I have just been laughing like a madwoman. It is two in the morning; I was finishing my supper when the blue five-branched candelabra tips, falls,...

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I went up to Maman's and stayed with her and my aunt; a great silence fell, which all three of us were burning to break, all three thinking of the...

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Just now, coming out of my dressing room, I frightened myself superstitiously. I saw beside me a woman dressed in a long white robe, holding a light...

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When Jesus healed the lunatic, his disciples asked him why those who had tried had been unable to cure him. And Jesus replied:

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Today is the first truly hot day.

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The heat is unbearable.

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"Let the heavens fall upon me, / Provided I am avenged! / If I shed tears, they are tears of rage..." I do not know where I read that. No — I am not...

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Ah! How hot it is. Cresci came and we fixed the days and hours of my singing lessons. Philosophy books astonish me — they are staggering products of...

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I do well to write my impressions on the spot, for rereading my time in Rome and my turmoil during Pietro's disappearance, I am quite astonished to...

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We were there discussing Dina's idea with Collignon when that idiot Marie, without warning anyone, admitted Laurenti by telling him that the young...

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But this brief well-being towards evening gave way to a sweet torpor, an enchanted languor, for the sea was calm, smooth as a mirror — blue sky, pure...

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Again towards evening I was quite ready to write verse — just as poor as yesterday's. I could make good verse if I were not in such a hurry. But I...

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There are quite enough moral irritations that one cannot prevent — physical irritations ought not to exist. The most foolish and almost the keenest...

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To collect the announcement letters without being observed it was necessary to go oneself. Accordingly towards six o'clock I went out, having put on...

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I have taken a new lady's maid. A tall, handsome brunette, very good manners — about thirty. I like her first because she is agreeable, because her...

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I forgot to say that yesterday the marriage of Lacroix to Saetone was celebrated, with M. Guiglia and M. Émile d'Audiffret [*sic*] as witnesses.

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Oh — all these books are absurd. I have had enough: novels, philosophy, history — enough, enough!

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It is two o'clock; I cannot find my place... come, since I say everything, do not be indignant. For a moment I thought that... well, I stop myself....

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I finished Collignon's portrait; during this last sitting Bihovetz arrived with all my family. It appears that the announcement card, before I could...

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At dinner a sort of council was held to judge which men are guilty and which are not. My aunt would not hear of the moral... innocence of Pietro and...

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How mad I am — I am killing myself to prove what no one denies. No one contests this, and I throw myself outside myself, outside my own skin to...

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Leone says he loves Italy more than Irène: "Italy before everything — before yourself." That is what my own friend used to say to me, and it would...

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And then... if he still loves me, I shall act in an entirely different way. I have nothing to spare, and I wish to take revenge on the priests — not...

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The sky, heavy with storm yesterday, has burst into rain. It is very pleasant. Ah! if only I could refresh myself with tears.

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Cresci brought me the compliments of "Monsieur Émile." The other day Galula, having met Maman, told her that they all knew what a voice I had and on...

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— Yes, he said, one must reply with nothing; you must not write. Besides, it will only add to your value as a person — one loves best what is...

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Why break it off! Niece of the Pope! Oh — if only this wretched boy does not forget me! He writes to me, he says he loves me. He is unhappy... Well,...

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This reading has shaken me. I must pass through St. Petersburg on my way home, but I shall try to find another route. I have no desire to choke on...

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That wretched Folon having again failed to come and take measurements for the mirrors, I had to go out — and once out, I consented to hear the...

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Every hour that passes is a grief to me. Time goes by... and I moulder!

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A woman lives from sixteen to forty. I have already lost two years — two of the best years!

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I leave tomorrow. And there is some indefinable regret at leaving Nice. All these travel preparations cast a certain chill over my resolutions. I...