Diary of Marie Bashkirtseff

Notebook 067

October 1876 — December 1876

37 entries 37 translated

Main location: Gavronzi

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— But plainly. Why all this evasiveness? Why not be simple and frank — I won't mock you; if I laugh, it's nerves and nothing more. I am the most...

And first, let us cite Gogol, our star of humour.

He is a clever rogue — though not clever, since I call him a rogue. I played again — what else was I to do! I spent a good hour translating Gogol,...

I did not know which way to go, and woke in a state of considerable agitation. And today Pacha puts before me the *Goloss* with this dispatch: "Rome,...

Last Sunday I was woken by Nadine's children, who had been brought during the night from Tchernakovka.

That very evening we encountered a certain Marie Perlik, a spinster of forty, daughter of a roadside innkeeper — one of those country people who had...

— Look at those fine shoulders, I said — and to think that I am condemned never to wear a décolletage... I lay down in a fury, beside myself, and...

Parisian boxes are instruments of torture — we were four, in a front box at a hundred and fifty francs, and could not stir.

You know what Walitsky told Maman. Antonelli made him his confidant — well... you know... he spent every night with prostitutes! Leaving my company!!!

Berthe came to see me — dear little thing. Caroline delights me; she dresses me as I have never been dressed before.

Until the evening things went tolerably enough, but suddenly a very serious, very measured, very honest conversation was entered upon concerning my...

My dear Cassagnac was already there, filling half the drawing room. But he intimidates me... which I believe makes me more reserved, more...

Why does one conceal one's nudity? Because one is not certain of being beautiful. If one had the certainty of a perfect and irreproachable beauty,...

I hate Paris. Perhaps if I stayed here for some time without going to the shops this hatred would pass. A sept heures et demie je suis allée dîner...

What did I do today? I do not know... Ah, yes — Berthe came to lunch with me and I settled accounts with all my dressmakers. Nous devions partir ce...

We arrived that evening. I was content, for fate had granted us two men from Antibes who took us for Russians on their first journey and asked the...

The small domestic miseries discourage me.