I have just arrived. The journey did not pass as miserably as I had feared. We laughed the entire time, and to prevent people from entering our...
I wake at seven o'clock.
To think all evening about that monster and receive, as reward, a welcome like that.
It is raining; I am sad and anxious. Adam is in Russia and he is going to give us no end of trouble!
At home they have got it into their heads that Audiffret is in love with me — I am furious; they will all look on me as a jilted woman.
I have just returned from the Opéra. They were giving *La Juive*. We were in a dark and cramped ground-floor box. I was only seen in the lobby. I was...
In thought Girofla is indifferent to me today. It is my eternal desires for greatness that torment me.
It is fine; I am in white, with a large straw hat, musketeer shape, turned up with a white bow and two feathers.
We go to the Bois when most people are coming back from it. ==And no Audiffret==, Machenka says to me.
I wrote on 18 March 1874 that I concern myself with Fedus because there is no one else — he is still better than Émile d'Audiffret — and *I cannot*...
I have seen Gioia — I no longer wish to leave.
How stupid it is to be superstitious. One must believe only in God!