Wednesday, 12 July 1882

I am preparing my famous picture, which will be very difficult to execute. I shall need to find a landscape of the kind I imagine, and a tomb cut into the rock... I should like to be able to do it nearer Paris — at Capri, which is quite the Orient and not so far — any rock would do... But I should need a real tomb; there must be some in Algeria and above all in Jerusalem — some Jewish tomb or other cut into the rock. And the models — oh, out there I shall have magnificent ones, in real costumes. Julian says it is madness; he understands, he says, that masters — those who know everything — should go and paint their pictures on the spot, since they go in search of the one thing they lack: savour, the real truth; whereas I, who lack so much! Well, but it seems to me that this is precisely what I must go in search of, since I can succeed only by dint of sincerity; how then does he expect me to forgo that savour — I who can have nothing else, or almost nothing. What will this picture amount to if it is made at Saint-Germain with Jewish women from the Batignolles in arranged costumes?
Whereas there I shall find worn, lived-in, authentic garments, and those chance combinations of tone produce things one cannot achieve by design. But the time lost in travel — fifteen days — and fifteen days settling in — a month in all. I would leave on the 15th of September, arrive on the 22nd, begin on the 10th of October; I give myself three months... A week to compose and draw, a week to prepare.
On the 24th of October I shall begin painting, and by the 1st of November the principal head will be done. The body will take until the 10th, since it is a matter of clothes and one sees only the arms and neck. On the 11th I shall begin the other figure, which will take ten days. The 27th, 28th, 29th, and 30th of November will be occupied with painting the foreground. I give myself ten more days for the background — which brings me to the 10th of December. Note that for the whole I have reckoned almost double the time I am likely to take, but one must allow for having to redo several passages. So I gave myself two weeks to draw and prepare — truly a great deal; a week for the head, yet the head, which is in profile, can only be done in a single day, and the hair with the brow one day; I suppose therefore that I shall have to redo it three times. Then ten days for the body... No — that is not the right way to calculate; one must count the actual likely working time, and then... So, here it is. Prepare and draw: one week, 10th to 18th October. 17th and 18th the head, 19th the hand, 20th the arm, 21st the neck, 22nd the shoulder, 23rd the other arm, 24th and 25th the clothes. 26th the other head, 27th one arm, 28th the other, 29th the hand, 30th and 31st the clothes. November 1st, 2nd, 3rd; 4th and 5th the foreground; 6th, 7th, 8th, 9th, and 10th the background. So in one month I ought to have done everything — if all succeeds at the first attempt.
written across the page
Between this day and the 5th of May 1883 an enormous step has been taken... One does not paint such a picture just like that. I had no idea.
But that cannot be — so I shall allow myself three months, for one must count the days of bad weather and the passages that fail. But I shall do it faster, for my composition will already be settled here — it is engraved there, in my head. From the 10th of October to the 15th of December is sixty-seven days. Now I need thirty days of ordinary work — yes, thirty days. Yes, thirty. Let us deduct: thirty-seven remain. Take away seven days of illness. Thirty remain; fifteen days of bad weather, and fifteen days to redo what will have gone wrong. Not counting that if I need more I can stay past the 15th of December... Ah! you don’t say!
No — but if I re-embark on the 15th or the 20th I shall be in Paris on the 1st of January and could paint a good portrait in the two and a half months that will remain.
My calculations are very accurate. Take Thérèse — I said fifteen days exactly and it took me thirty; and note that I had ill-luck throughout with the head.
So by allowing three times what is needed I may get it right, for this picture is far more difficult and I shall have to search for the effect and so many things... Well, if I do not do it in one go, that means it will be bad... Yet... Oh, these explanations and this pen...
Enough, enough, enough.

Notes

Batignolles: an ordinary quarter of north-western Paris (17th arrondissement), known in the period for its painters. ↩