Carolus-Duran comes to speak with me, very amiable. The man is a charmer. Breslau's painting is hung very high up and makes a deplorable impression....
We chat with Bastien and then with Carolus-Duran, who accompanies us all the way to the carriage.
I who showed such promise!!
That portrait of Cassagnac is abominable — do you know, he is already thirty-eight.
"Mademoiselle will come to see you around five o'clock, and we shall order a dozen of those dresses... Only... For no one has Mademoiselle's style."
The only thing is he changes his opinions — this summer he had spoken very highly of Breslau's picture, and now it is mediocre, and besides she is...
Around four o'clock we go to the Salon with the Gavinis — Friday is the fashionable day. I am very pretty in my grey dress, so simple and so...
The guests: Mme Lepic, Janvier's sister; Janvier; the Comtesse de Reverseaux, Janvier's daughter; M. and Mme Jide; M. and Mme Randouin, who is Mme...
All seasoned with Slavic cunning and guile! Oh! These creatures!
Now you know that it was Bojidar and the Princess who said all this — they had even claimed they had not come here for a whole year because "that...
These kitchen gossips had been carrying back to Cartwright's all the careless remarks I made — and Schaeppi showed a sketch she made one day when I...
I am afraid they may get it into their heads to ask for me. I hope they will not. For one thing it would be on account of my dowry... So I cannot be...
For him and with him, I understand and accept everything.
We go to Étincelle's, where we find Aurore — decidedly a dawn well past its prime, but she has charming, rather sharp manners in the absence of the...
She does not satisfy me — as for the husband, he acts not at all badly.
The prizes awarded are outrageous — that of justified. But there are others... It is sickening and fills one with sadness. One would think artists...
The very height of elegance — genuine society, truly ravishing and fresh young women. Real gowns. The old Duchess has I do not know how many nephews...
I saw Julian in the morning — he thinks the large pastel of Dina is very good.
Only we are no further advanced for it, because he is as indecisive as we are; but he is an altogether charming fellow, kind, good, very good — a bit...
And to be done with it — a detestable week, for I do almost nothing.
We shall see. I am going as a turkey-girl, costume by Grévin. White-and-blue striped skirt, canvas bonnet, apron with a centre pocket; a blouse...
In the evening there are also the Comte and Comtesse de Béarn, M. and Mme Jide, M. and Mme Randouin, Montgomery, Melissano, the two Pignatellis,...
And afterwards to Tortoni's.
I go to Tony's, where I do an impression of Carolus, and around four o'clock, having only time to change my gown, I rush to the Salon, where I find...
And Gabriel goes, leaving me with I know not what regrets... of having been a little unkind to him, perhaps not amiable enough with the father......
The truth is I imagine everyone makes much of me...
Ah, Spain — it is a volume of Th. Gautier that is to blame for this... Can it be! How I passed through Toledo, Burgos, Córdoba, Seville, Granada!...
The studio where I work has been lent to Mlle Lönnstadt by an American named Chadwick, who came today, and we give him back his time — Chadwick,...
An entire floor to myself with studio and balcony. The ladies on the ==first floor==, reception rooms below, a garden... To paint outdoors without...
*I am painting on Bastien's own palette, with his colours, his brush, in his studio, with his brother as model!...*
It feels like a comedown. And yet... It consists of vast cellars with kitchen etc. etc. and a billiard room.
I set myself to reading all these absurdities, I work myself up and cannot stop. It is dreadful. But am I wrong — that is to say, *am I unjust?*
Yes, in a way I cannot find my place; I wander... I do Nothing! That is the misfortune!
See these conquests. Besides, I please only intelligent people. O vanity... No — it is true; artists, whether women or men, always think above their...
And you must admit my letter is monstrous... Besides, for four days I have been saying such infamous things about her — and to her yesterday...
I ought at least to tell Maman, for I do not even enjoy the foolish revenge... Revenge always seems foolish when one is no longer angry.
I pity those who have felt nothing there... I was there under disagreeable stormy conditions... but I return to it in memory... Tony is decidedly a...
Well, it is like a funeral oration for Rosalie — this girl, through living with me and listening to me, had acquired delicacies of feeling and...
Mme de Fitz-James came with Mlle de Charette, to whom she wishes to give a taste for painting.
Whereas there I shall find worn, lived-in, authentic garments, and those chance combinations of tone produce things one cannot achieve by design. But...
And the cook being dead drunk there was no dinner at all — we had to send to the dairy shop next door for food. But we had a good laugh. Géry had...
One might, however, have enjoyed running through the illuminated streets with amusing and youthful companions.
It seems I am not very amiable with Gabriel — I am, only not flirtatious; such people bore me. Young Arnaud de Linsengen, who is twenty-one, asks...
Towards seven o'clock Tony and Julian arrive. Great compliments for the head — it is rich, it is supple, the tone is fine, it is very good. At last...
He had said yesterday, as we laughingly invited him back, that he would return whenever it pleased him. So here he comes to take back a word.
This evening we go to Bidel's — Adeline and the two Gérys.
"Ah, that reminds me... Madeleine."
Tony comes only in the evening.
While saying things to the Gavinis designed to dispel any illusion about the possibility of proposing Gabriel to me, and while keeping my distance...
Ah, if only I were a man.
Nothing works like tenacity, sustained effort — whereas a good week and then nothing amounts to little, does not advance one. But it is true — I have...