Wednesday, 18 April 1877

I sent for him and waited for him in vain until half past six, after which I went down to dinner with my family. You will understand my astonishment at seeing Larderel arrive, at the fish, and sit down beside Madame my mother, with whom he at once struck up a friendly chat in which we rarely joined. Fresh as I had been a moment before, I went red.
Never once has that man seen me with my natural face! He is friends with Maman, he flirts with Dina in a teasing way, and he is almost rude to me.
We took coffee in our rooms, where that man came to bring his correspondence, which he reads and lets others read. He has the good nature and the frankness of girls.
I arranged matters so as to meet him in the anteroom just as he was leaving, to say to him:
— For two days I have been trying to speak to you and there is no way of catching you. Are you afraid?
— Afraid? I? Of what? Really, all that was wanting was for me to be afraid of you.
— Well, since you are so brave, I have... a whole heap of stories to tell you...
— Take care here, someone may come.
— Yes, but tomorrow at dinner-time.
Either he hates me, or he is afraid I shall marry him by force.
An evening party at the Fabbricatore’s; my first wish on entering was to run away. It was ten o’clock and I stayed until three. A whole crowd of callow young men were introduced to me. After every dance I was ready to faint, as much from fatigue as from boredom. I could say nothing among all that rabble, and I confined myself to a cold and continual smile.
And there, bored and sad, I was neither red nor plain!
Mme Fabbricatore sat enthroned in all the majesty of her height and her fat, and the two daughters trailed about, coiffed and dressed like a pair of savages, the wild look in their eyes adding still more to the likeness. M. Fabbricatore looked, according to the consul, who came with us, as if he were turning the ice-cream machine; he was not turning it, there was not even a machine; but that good, modest, bearded baritone looked as if he were turning it.
My two worst, Melito and Caracciolo, were my saviours here, and above all the nice Baroness Formosa, daughter of Baron Nolli or Nolla, I do not know exactly which; Caracciolo, who has just come from the Princess di Potenasse’s, says they riddled him with questions about us and about our last reception. A trifle like that makes a stir. I do not know why, but people are always and everywhere taken up with us.
Ah yes, I made the acquaintance of old Baron Callotti, a senator, and talked with him; he, Carmignano and Cesi, the greatest musician in Naples, were a real consolation to me.
Good heavens, I thought, I would dance as much as anyone liked, and I hope I shall have some compensation as regards... Larderel in return for this torture.
Marie, so brilliant, so gay, so wild — is this you? Had I always been as I am now, it is certain that neither those around me nor I myself would ever have had such arrogant ideas.
I am losing all my advantages!! Why? And just when I need them most urgently. Let us not say naive little things; it is silly.
I am becoming like this because I am absorbed by one dominant thought, which keeps my ideas and my wit, all clustered around that inner thought, from coming to light. As for this evening, it is quite natural. I am good for nothing in such surroundings, and it has happened to me before. I have nothing in common with those people; they irritate me.
What a mania, to invite all that riff-raff, when one could spend such a pleasant evening with the master and mistress of the house.
For a moment I thought the commotion caused by the loss of one of Mme Lieto’s diamond earrings would put an end to the party, but alas! The cotillion was danced in spite of everything.
1st deal:
Surroundings: queen of hearts accompanied by a friend — surrounded by a great deal of money, by a present — by a little trip that concerns her friend.
Course of events: through the influence of an old woman, a complete change will very quickly take place in Mlle Marie’s position; this change augurs a great deal of good for a return home, where her friend (queen of diamonds) will have a flutter caused by a king of diamonds.
In a more or less near future the queen of hearts will have a little girl — who will momentarily give her a very great fright (at home — her home), but the mother’s happiness will not be altered by it in the least — she will be at peace — much tenderness in the relations of the household — finally a letter will announce to her a large sum of money which will come to her without any doubt.
2nd deal:
Surroundings — money — felicity — but because of the change which is to take place exceedingly fast through the old lady who is always between Mlle Marie at home.
Course of events.
In the 1st deal the future did not show itself at all — but here, on the other hand, it shows itself quite clearly, and in the following manner.
Mlle Marie is much taken up with a king of hearts who bears her rather warm feelings — he works through the old lady on whom the question of money largely depends — a letter, not a bad one, which will bring him back to the queen of clubs in connection with the queen of diamonds — which will cause a fright before returning home — after that the capital change will come, which, as in the first deal, augurs good results — much tenderness — still a little girl, accompanied by a present.
Final result:
for the queen of hearts:
Pleasant happiness — constancy in friendship with the queen of diamonds.
for her heart:
A husband — king of hearts — an elderly man, who will probably be the husband of the queen of diamonds.
for the house:
Much money — much tenderness — a magnificent present.
what awaits her:
The constant tenderness of the king of hearts — a journey — an unexpected fright.
what she does not know:
That she will be bombarded with letters — there will be talk of the fortune that awaits her.