Saturday, 8 September 1884

I ought to be sorry that peasant Emile did not die. Do you know what he had left me when he set off for Algeria? For it seems he made his will after the Gambetta monument. He told me so because I was talking about my funeral, and because it would fall to him to carry out my last wishes.
Well, he was leaving me his portrait by Jules.
That is touching and kind beyond anything I can say. To have thought of me so magnificently at such a moment.
Jules was at death’s door — we did not believe it — and he had just lost out on Gambetta... It was the end of everything. It was over the monument that I wrote him the letter he showed to Jules, and Jules’s friendship dates from Algiers. Now, according to Emile, he adores us.
As for my letter, I had composed it, weighed it, arranged it with Jules in mind, of course.
And it looked as though it had been dashed off in one go, any old how. That is art, my children. And yet I am sincere!