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Friday, 7 September 1883
To spend an entire afternoon irritated by people with whom it is impossible to be angry! Louis does not pose at all, while remaining in his place opposite me; Marcel sings and Claire paints away, chatting and responding to her brothers' laughter and kicks and nudges. And I seethe in silence. And that is what passes for sitting for a portrait. Well… I am tired and unwell — I want to leave…# Vendredi 7 septembre 1883
He has just punished twenty thousand people at Batavia. And God… And God…
Il vient de punir vingt mille personnes à Batavia. Et Dieu... Et Dieu...
Well, so be it — I cannot live without God.
Eh bien tant pis, moi je ne peux pas vivre sans Dieu;