Sunday, 3 July 1881

[…] and pray to God. I have two plans. First, I want to be cured by a miracle, I want to pray to God and, before leaving, to make a pilgrimage: close by here there is a Virgin who works miracles. You can well imagine that I do not suppose this image any more than another to be capable of working miracles, but one there goes, praying a great deal, and God hears you.
Then after the 20th we shall travel to Italy. This year I preferred Patti — but next year I shall travel. Princess Eristoff, myself, Dina, Paul and Nini. No parents. Oh! No, no, no...
Can you imagine me of an evening on the balcony, a serenade, the moon, etc... And the dear parents shouting nonsense — no! And then it would be endless worry.
How Gabriel resembles the perfect heroes. Physically he very much resembles La Môle from Queen Margot and in character the Vicomte de Bragelonne — too virtuous, too utterly good, that is to say, in short.
Is it then possible that Cassagnac is the true love of my life? For a good four years I have thought of no other or rather and, above all, have never ceased to think of him. I could even say five years — that is, always, setting aside the shameful madness over Larderel.

Notes

Adelina Patti (1843–1919), the most celebrated soprano of the age, who sang in Paris in the spring of 1881. ↩
La Mole: Joseph-Boniface de La Mole, the romantic hero of Alexandre Dumas’s La Reine Margot (1845). The Vicomte de Bragelonne is the young hero of Dumas’s Le Vicomte de Bragelonne (1847–50). ↩