Tuesday, 15 June 1880 — Notebook 088

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I spent the evening between Caillas and Cerny, to whom I had let slip that Caillas knows the secret of making eyes appear larger and of dyeing hair. She was putting questions to him, and he, having been forewarned, made it very amusing. His friend Beaunels is apparently in love with me, or at least he was on the verge of falling for me in earnest. Upon which he went to consult his friend Caillas, who gave him the wise advice not to come and see me. Better a few days' heartache than an infatuation which, given who you are, might lead to heaven knows what — a suicide, perhaps...

Passé la soirée entre Caillas et la Cerny à laquelle j'avais raconté que Caillas a le secret d'agrandir les yeux et de teindre les cheveux. Elle lui faisait des questions et lui étant prévenu c'était drôle. Son ami Beaunels est paraît-il amoureux de moi, ou du moins a été sur le point de s'emballer sérieusement. Et là- dessus il est allé consulter son ami Caillas qui lui a donné le sage conseil de ne pas venir voir. Vaut mieux un chagrin de quelques jours qu'un entrainement qui, étant donné vous, peut mener à Dieu sait quoi, un suicide peut-être...