Friday, 27 July 1877

The Lambertini-Antonelli lawsuit continues to make a great stir. Which sets me thinking again about my own lawsuits.
Why did things end so strangely with Antonelli?
One could weep — with rage that anyone should have dared to love me otherwise than to make me his wife.
Paul Antonelli has married a Russian — tall, thin, rather blonde; obscure family and bourgeois air.
If it were true that that debauched cardinal left eighty millions... that would be twenty millions a head; but as only two brothers have children, it is between those two that the division must be made, which gives Louis Antonelli forty millions, themselves divided among his three sons; Pierre would in that case have something like thirteen millions, giving him six hundred and fifty thousand francs of income. On the day when Louis Antonelli inherited his forty millions. Ah! I was about to forget little Lambertini — little Alexandrine of the cardinal — let us suppose they award her a quarter: that reduces Louis's share to thirty millions; on the day, then, when it were known that he held his thirty millions — truly, one might attempt something, if there were still time.
Really, I am amusing myself! I reason and calculate as though I were like everyone else! Does anything ever succeed for me!!
It is to write these futilities that I have interrupted my drawing. I know not why all those vexations with Antonelli — at Rome and above all at Nice — come back to my mind and torment me!
Maman, Dina, grand-papa, and Walitsky arrived today. And already I have had time to be wounded twenty times by the airs of perfect contentment and bourgeois complacency that Madame my mother affects.
I made the acquaintance of Miss Hall; she lived opposite Silène.
Blanc and Rémy came to take us to Musart, but instead we stayed at home.

Notes

The Lambertini-Antonelli case: Countess Loretta Lambertini claimed to be the illegitimate daughter of Cardinal Giacomo Antonelli (1806–1876), Secretary of State to Pius IX, and thus entitled to a share of his vast estate.