Friday, 23 March 1877

Worse still than yesterday! Ah! Lord, take this madness from me. Tolomo, But the tall dark one put on an extraordinary performance before our balcony — in a wheelbarrow, with Melissano conducting them with his cane like an orchestra leader.
Pascarola’s visit helps me recover a little from this morning’s despair and from the mad laughter Melissano caused me.
This evening for the first time I enjoyed myself at the Skating. We were all together — the Fabbricatores, the Hamontoffs, Mme and Mlle Hotowsky, Bikowsky, Santasiglia, Pascarola, and the Duc de Melito, who is introduced to us. And to begin with, he complains of the difficulty of gaining access to us — the Neapolitans are so jealous of their acquaintances that they will introduce nobody.
— Those you know do not wish to introduce others — otherwise you would know everyone. But it is the Neapolitan way.
So that is why. Then old Baron Formosa is introduced.
Santasiglia is an altogether charming child; he and Bikowsky are my cavaliers, and on the asphalt Melito never leaves us. He is a fair-haired young man of twenty-three, slow of speech and dull of intellect, as it seems to me.
Santasiglia asks my permission to introduce three gentlemen whose names I no longer remember.
— I don’t know how to go about it, he says, blushing all the while. Will you allow me?
And it was Melito’s introduction that had emboldened him, for in order to introduce him he went and asked Mlle Fabbricatore to find out from me whether I would allow it. But it was Olga Hamontoff who amused me. She was absolutely set on Melito being for her, and was angry in earnest because he did not ask to be introduced to her. He had to be brought to her almost by force, and even then she kept saying it was not according to the rules, and since it was meant for her, she could not understand why he was with me.
Giselle and Balzorano make one long to love. If Balzorano were not mad about his beloved, I would fall in love with him.
Good Lord, as Larderel says, I think I had a little success this evening.
It is mainly my twenty-seven million.