First day of my new era! My misfortune, my first failure. How God is... no, always good and great. I am wretched this morning; as though in a dream....
There are moments, then, when I am pretty! And so pretty. Undoing my hair, I improvised the simplest coiffure -- a single comb holds the hair up,...
My mirror has broken. If I were superstitious, it would be a sign that I am to die. The moment I saw that shattered glass I was greatly troubled; I...
I say nothing; I can say nothing! I am too unhappy -- during my lessons I had to hold back tears. I see everything I imagined and dreamed of being...
Yesterday morning Maman, reading *La Vie mondaine,* read out that: the Duke of Hamilton is marrying etc. etc. Solominka raised her eyes to me.
The two months have passed since that terrible day. I may go to the theatre. Again =="The Duke of Hamilton's Marriage."==
I did not get the *Galignani,* and I know nothing. Mme de Pierlay came. I go out on foot (brown dress, good); I am no longer stiff as before; my hair...
It has been exactly one week since he married.
Detestable day! It begins with a *Galignani,* which I keep. Maman and Dina were at church -- it is our Saint Nicholas's Day. They return with a...
I rode on horseback with Dina and the Howards -- with the Howards by chance; I do not wish to ride with them any more, it is awkward. I skip my...
My children, what an adorable day today. None of that star that gives light and life -- mild, fresh. We go out as a threesome: I, Hitchcock and...
How stupid one is in this world! I, for example -- if this pen were not gold, I would certainly not use it, but since it is gold I try to accustom...
Maman is ill and my aunt is not well. I was already prepared, to avenge myself, to suffer martyrdom and resign myself to staying, but Mlle...
I go to the band with my aunt and Papa (brown dress, not bad). I did not put on a corset, to see; there is no difference, only it is very...
We ride on horseback, Dina and I. This Dina spoiled the ride for me at first, but toward the end all went very well.
I have just come back from the English church, where I went with Dina and Hitchcock. There are not many English there -- a pity (brown dress, good)....
To begin with, I skip my Latin lesson, since on opening my eyes I found it was ten o'clock; then I had no luncheon at all. It did not enrage me, but...
I have just read the Apocalypse, and I understand no more of it than the rest do. I ==dozed off== several times and caught myself with my nose bent...
I had planned to do a great deal and managed a few cantos of the *Iliad.* This morning for the first time I felt the absence of the garden and the...
I had no wish to go to Monaco, but having prepared nothing for Hitchcock, I go (brown dress and brown hat, good). I arranged it quite well and am...
It is terribly cold, so cold that my nose was red. We go to Monier's -- Maman, my aunt, Dina and I -- but while *these ladies* were trying things on,...
I felt like going to see *Le Canard à trois becs*. Walitsky went to find a small ground-floor box and we go, but the pleasure is no doubt poisoned by...
Supplement to the fourteenth book.