Saturday, 1 November 1873

I go with Bete to the station at three o’clock to meet the governess (new blue dress, good). But how to recognise her? We got down from the carriage (Auguste and Saïd are in uniform) and stood near the door examining all the figures who appeared suspect and guilty of long curls and a large crinoline. We pursued an Englishwoman, speaking English and pronouncing “Hitchcock” every minute. But in vain -- no one.
The whole time is spent at home. Paul takes the carriage and goes to Arson’s. At five o’clock, with difficulty, I managed to get the landau, and we went out with Bete. It is cold and nearly dark; however, we saw the Vigier with a bedsheet on her head.
I was bored -- I am always bored now, even when I am enjoying myself. I am so accustomed to going before dinner to the London House or to [...]
[Written earlier:
-- Liberty costume with a bare leg of papier-mâché attached at the side, which I shall hold out instead of my hand.]
My prayer until Monday, 13 October 1873.
-- Our Father
-- Hail Mary
-- Credo
-- Bless the room
-- Let God arise
-- Deliver us from smallpox and from corns
-- To be good
-- Family happiness
-- Life and health of my mother
-- That Pavloucha be a man of worth (2 bows)
-- To be rid of the lawsuit (2 bows).
I give thanks for everything, for instance for Berthe, Baden, etc.
-- To live well, to entertain or to live in Paris (three bows)
-- To own our horses, one for myself (2 bows).
-- To make the acquaintance of the Duke of Hamilton and for him to visit us (2 bows)
-- German, Italian, and Latin languages (3 bows)
-- English language and other lessons, prayer and at the same time thanks (6 bows)
-- For Berthe, etc.
-- Connections in Nice
-- Dresses, thanks and petition
-- To ride, thanks and petition
-- For Hamilton to abandon Gioia
-- To make his acquaintance, for him to love me and marry me.
-- To have carriage horses, ride horses, and race-horses (3 bows)
-- To attend the shooting events and the races
-- To study well
-- To sing and play well
-- To speak English well
-- To marry well
-- To be rich
-- (Recapitulation) -- Lessons, English language, governess, dresses, riding, connections, husband, racehorses, etc.
Final:
-- Life of my mother
-- Health
-- Wealth
-- Title
-- Fine position (in society)
-- To marry the Duke of Hamilton and have three children, a son and two daughters (3 bows)
-- To have racehorses, to bet on them, to win the wager and carry off the prizes (3 bows)
Recapitulation:
-- To keep my mother, etc. etc.
-- That Dina marry quickly and well
-- That Pavloucha be a gentleman.
-- For my voice to be great, strong, pure, resonant, deep, round, sweet, supple, flexible, and pleasing (3 bows).
-- Tranquillity.
-- Salvation.
-- And that is all.

Notes

Written in Russian in the manuscript; French translation by the editor. ↩
In English in the original. ↩
In Italian in the original: Tranquillita. / Salvazione. / E tutto. ↩