Wednesday, 6 February 1884

The painting again. Then sculpture by gaslight
Gaillard to dinner.
I went to Julian’s to show him the Randouin portrait; this Marseillais looks very pleased and tells me it is getting better and better.
That is not my opinion of the portrait — I detest it; but if others think as Julian does... Well, I shall redo it all the same; I shall try to make it please me — one more session.
That Jew Julian irritates me. He persists in addressing me thus: your health in painting is getting better and better; he wants me to have been very strong, then to have fallen off, then to be strong again — it is false, false, false! My studies are there — verify it!
In any case...

Notes

Marie’s use of this antisemitic epithet, common in 1880s Parisian discourse, is recorded as written. Rodolphe Julian (1839–1907) was not in fact Jewish. ↩