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Friday, 7 December 1883
Dina is often ill — migraines. She cannot pose. I am wasting my time. I am doing nothing. For a month now. Nothing! It puts me in a rage that makes me want to scratch!I am making sketches for Julius... Caesar. It does not grip me, but one can find interest in it, put something amusing, something of one's own into it — and in the end one must do it.
I reopen the diary to say something about Bastien-Lepage — anything at all.
Dina est souvent malade, des migraines. Elle ne peut pas poser. Je perds mon temps. Je ne fais rien. Depuis un mois. Rien ! Cela me met dans une exaspération à griffer !