Tuesday, 12 October 1875

Our English neighbours at no. 55 are people worthy of notice. It is Lord Augustus Loftus, former ambassador to Berlin, and his family.
I believe I shall stop lunching at the pavilion. This poor grandfather has become so maddening! Instead of getting used to him I am getting less so. He is so tedious! He says nothing disagreeable but he is unbearable — is it age, is it stupidity? I only know that he irritates me infinitely. Maman agrees with me, but she has more patience.
She is better, I think; we go to Nina's and from there on foot — she, I and my Three Graces.
It is very cool and I am in deep blue — I am taller than my mother!
It seems as if she is the daughter, and I walk on her arm quite proudly.
But here is Saetone; catching sight of Maman he bounds forward to speak to her. I blushed at it. There are explanations. He says the same thing as always — that I turned my head three times and that he was in despair, that I had offended him.
I deny it; he appeals to the testimony of Audiffret Emile.
— Well, Audiffret Emile will not be telling the truth if he says that. But tell me — did you come to call on my aunt when I left?
— Yes! And they told me she was in Monaco.
— You did not come!
— My word of honour!
— You, Andriot Saetone, came?!
— I swear it to you.
All this half laughing, half in earnest. Well, it is over.
I take care to be the first to leave, so that he shall not be the first to leave us.
The carriage arrives with the monster Georges and I must endure him with me!
Tonight, Giroflé-Girofla. Left stage box. We are all there: Maman, my aunt, Dina, Giroflé, Marie and I. I position myself at the back.
Fiouloulou arrives first.
When they said in the play, "Girofla has been abducted by the pirates!" —
— Yes, said Galula, the pirates have abducted Girofla.
— Really! And what are these pirates like?
— Very pretty — otherwise Girofla would have defended himself.
— I have no doubt of that.
— Indeed — his sisters are very charming, and they are the pirates.
— His sisters are here then?
— No — but before they returned to the convent they had two days' leave, and he went to amuse them a little.
O Galula, flower of innocence! If you think I believe your nonsense.
He goes out and in a moment returns "as ambassador" — M. Saetone requests permission to present himself and apologises for not being in evening dress. Permission is granted unanimously. Andriot, the handsome Andriot, enters. He spoke again of a secret to Giroflé; she receives him with pursed lips and by her whole bearing proves to him that he has succeeded and encourages him to continue his intrigues.
Then we have Ricardo, Bihovetz twice, and Chevalier.
— Good Lord! cried Maman when the last one entered. It's Merjeewsky!
I am radiant at having five pairs of trousers in the box. Marie and Enoteas are chatting about Cima in a corner.
— What! I said. M. Saetone in the confidence!
— Ah, Mademoiselle, when one is reduced to that role, it is the lowest thing that can befall a gentleman.
— Just so — then why do you always make yourself everyone else's confidant!
This visibly amused him — but I said nothing more, so that I shall appear not to wish to say all I know; and he will know himself found out and will have a better opinion of me.
— Is one still in love with Girofla? he asked.
— Ah, Monsieur, to madness.
Fiouloulou and Chevalier help us into the carriage.
— Monsieur Galula, take my train, and you, M. Chevalier, help me up — that's it, Monsieur.
And our two carriages carry us away.
The whole evening I kept my foot on Marie's, and she regulated her conversation according to my various pressures. Ten times she was on the point of saying things that were inrattrapable [sic]. What tongues, good Lord! What children of nature!

Notes

Lord Augustus Loftus (1817–1904) — British diplomat, formerly ambassador to Prussia (1865–68); at this date serving as Ambassador to Russia (1871–79). He later became Governor of New South Wales (1879–85).
Inrattrapables — Marie's own coinage: things once said that cannot be unsaid or retrieved. The word does not exist in standard French; its invention is characteristic of Marie's linguistic creativity.