Tuesday, 4 October 1881

Young Pollack accompanied us all day yesterday, serving as our guide and making himself useful very pleasantly. We visit the School of Fine Arts, where there are remarkable Goyas — besides which there is so much beautiful painting here. The Duchess of Alba painted completely nude — I must not keep putting off having myself painted likewise… Oh! How well I understand… In any case, it is curious that painting so badly I adore color… Nothing so melancholy as beautiful impasto on incomplete forms — without abandoning the drawing? Nothing so melancholy. But that is Velázquez — wait, let us finish yesterday first; so yesterday, after a walk in the Buen Retiro, we go to a café to hear singing and see dancing by a sort of gypsy women. It is altogether strange — a guitar rasped by a man and a dozen women clapping in time, then suddenly one of them begins to push out notes; chromatic songs in disorder, impossible to describe. It is altogether Arab; in any case after an hour one has quite had enough. The dancing would be very… entertaining for men if there were less costume — these women are in dressing gowns with a shawl
on the shoulders and flowers in the hair — and these dresses of muslin or even canvas prevent one from seeing the movements of the hips so characteristic of them. Old Pollack came to join us there. Soria was supposed to come, but as he is a Jew he fasted — yesterday was Yom Kippur — and it made him ill. He is an observant Jew and almost boasts of it. I was in a mantilla like a Spaniard, and my blonde attractions drew some glances… Those creatures have eyes!!! every last one of them. Spanish women are all amusing to paint if not pretty. Such complexions, such eyes. Ah! One understands Spanish painting upon seeing it — it is… superb! In full impasto it is rich, it is broad, what color!… This morning from nine o'clock I am at the museum before Velázquez, before whom everything else is dry and pale — except Ribera, who nevertheless falls short of him. In the portrait of an unknown sculptor there is a hand that is the key to the entire technique of Carolus-Duran, who as we know wants to reproduce Velázquez. Ah! Lord, he barely manages to make beautiful portraits — whereas look at the nude by Velázquez! I encounter Soria and Pollack and we continue together. They know I can only be alone in a museum — an artist's quirk, which is why it is not shocking; besides it is only in a museum, and besides we are plain country folk, are we not… Not so plain that I do not find myself disliking the company of the magnificent Hebrew with Italian manners. They bring me back Soria speaking of our last evening in Nice, in 1876 — that is to say, of a certain plain white wool dress like an antique, showing nothing but the line of the neck, the hair knotted very high and carelessly, revealing a nape… and the arms with their graceful lines!… He describes so well every detail of that dress that it must truly have had something. A pity that he is with friends — otherwise it would be more amusing! But I suffer from not hearing well! I feign eccentricities, absences — and it is ah! how dreadful. And my eyes — I had visual flutterings for an hour. If I go blind… it is not certain that I would kill myself… We have bought a Spanish guitar and a mandolin… One cannot imagine Spain… and they say Madrid has less character than what I am about to see — Toledo, Granada, Seville… Besides I am delighted to be here; I have a fever to train my hand with some study in the museum, then to make a painting, and to stay here two months if need be.
Ah! If I were not deaf I would adapt to everything and would be happy! Miranda has directed us to M. Alfredo Escobar, son of the Marquis of…, of the journal La Época — this gentleman has already called twice.

Notes

Goya's La maja desnuda (c. 1797–1800), held at the Prado; tradition long associated the sitter with the Duchess of Alba, though this is disputed by modern scholars.
Yom Kippur: the Jewish Day of Atonement, the holiest day of the Jewish calendar, observed with a complete fast.
Carolus-Duran: Charles Auguste Emile Durand (1837–1917), celebrated French portrait painter and teacher; Marie studied under him alongside John Singer Sargent. He was a devoted admirer of Velázquez.
Velázquez's The Rokeby Venus (La venus del espejo, c. 1647–51), then still in Spain; the only surviving nude by Velázquez.
Les papillons (butterflies): Marie's term for visual disturbances — floaters or scintillating scotoma — a symptom that appears repeatedly in connection with her deteriorating health.
La Época: a conservative Madrid daily newspaper, one of the leading Spanish papers of the Restoration period (1875–1923). Alfredo Escobar (1861–1924) later became its director.